And like that, a majestic house overlooking the ocean, an adorable dog to babysit, and a rugged vehicle for adventures to the beach. Here in Costa Rica. For 5 months over the rainy season. Free. In my lap. Done deal.
And then- an incredible sister to sing with. And not just sing… fly. Together we soar, and we’re envisioning albums. Performances around Costa Rica and beyond. And she tells me: Heather, you’re the answer to my prayers. I’ve been waiting for a friend like you, a sister in my life whose heart beats with mine.
I melted. I’ve dreamed of a singing career ever since I sang at my aunt’s wedding as a kid, but never put much thought into its actual fruition because it seemed like something that only happened if you were “discovered” at a karaoke night in Vegas.
And the cherry on top- a gorgeous oceanfront resort and an invitation to teach daily yoga at two standup paddle board/yoga retreats this summer.
I’ve never considered myself a “master manifester”. Somehow the manifestation story of vision boards and affirmations and chanting manifestation meditations never really resonated. Not because I couldn’t get into them- I’ve made some gorgeous vision boards in my time, and to be honest, the first ever visioning collage I plastered in my leather-bound journal a few years back came to full fruition. Like, in an uncanny way. Yoga. Travel. Community. Spiritual resonance. Deep magic in my clients’ lives.
Its more like… you’re sitting down with Santa and when he asks you what you want, and you’re scrunching up your forehead and saying, “Hmm. I’m actually not really sure…”
In the moment when I’m supposed to ask for something… I don’t know what to manifest exactly.
Of course, there are the usual suspects- totally amazing and aligned clients, travel opportunities, new and deep friendships, fantastic yoga classes, delicious food, a date with Justin Timberlake (ahem), being a vessel for the divine. You know, the usual.
But I’m always a little foggy on the details. Uhhh… How exactly do I want all of this to look? Details? Places? I’m a big picture gal, people.
My plans here in Costa only took me up until May- my 30th birthday, in fact, was when my visa would run out. After that, I wasn’t sure where life would lead me- the rainy season here can be challenging, and I felt perhaps I’d be called elsewhere.
But the Universe conspired to ground me here, in the solace and quiet of the rainy season, with the promise of plenty of alone time, a guitar, my yoga mat, and the rainy beach.
In total it’s a case of not knowing what to ask for, but receiving exactly what I need- and what I didn’t know I so deeply wanted.
A songstress sister who looks straight into my heart. A solo retreat during the quietest time in this community. Building my connections in the musical and yoga world and offering retreats.
Ah, of course. Thank you, Universe, for reading the desires of my heart.
“So um, you’re telling me to just wait in not knowing and the Universe will drop magic in my lap?”
Not in so many words, but kind of.
Rather than become so attached to manifesting the minute details of exactly the life you want- the type of car, the color of the boyfriend’s eyes, the locale of the magical house- I’m rather suggesting that you focus on listening in to how you’re manifesting your magical and heart centered life now.
Are you present? Committed to listening to your intuition, living every day with your heart wide open to hear the Universe’s guidance?
Or are you stuck swirling in your mind, worrying about every detail?
And beyond presence- are you willing to let go of the details and accept that your dream life could take a hundred and eight forms that you don’t even know you should ask for?
In a sense, aspiring to be a “master manifester” is quite an ego trip. It makes the assumption that we know ALL the possible outcomes, and that now, in this moment, we’re totally equipped to choose the BEST one for us down the road. Which of course, we can then make happen.
That’s a bit cocky now, isn’t it?
And so we lose what’s here right now and turn our eyes to what’s ahead. And we ignore a lot of possibility too.
Granted, there’s a fine line between being SO present in the Now that you fail to plan anything for the future, and then on the other hand, overanalyzing every possible option you can imagine so you can plan five years from now. For us, Heart Centered Ones, I think we know which side we tend to fall on.
But I know you can walk that line, and surrender to the likelihood that there are many, many possible ways this journey could go, and the best option for you might be one you haven’t thought of yet. You can let go of the overanalyzing and open up to unknown possibilities, the kind the might surprise you because you didn’t know how to ask for them. You didn’t know you wanted to ask for them.
I mean, really- how do you ask for magic?
Dear Universe, I surrender fully to this journey of co-creation. Though I have dreams, desires, and a beautiful vision for living my life, I also trust that when I open my heart to listen, I will be guided and fully taken care of. I commit my energy, my love, and my passion to this journey, and I believe in magic. Bring it on- my eyes, ears, and heart are open.